{ 5:35 AM }

Today back from jitra very tired...i n her relationship end again haiz...i dunno why when i go work she in msn always told ppl tat we going break soon...izzit she really feel wanna break?maybe yes maybe no...i dunno y she wan bring along the past everyday with her...cant she just put it down and hav a new life with me?...i always can feel tat our relationship wont end so fast coz i always can feel tat she is the one i wan to be with her 4ever...when i working my mind just keep think about her and our future will be how happy...but y everyday just will argue and sad...izzit the god wan me n her end tis relationship?...just now we already say in phone,she move with her own life and me move with my own life...but my heart really hope she can back to me =(

远在身边

不是每只船 都不怕流浪的孤单

可是他们仍扬起帆 因为心中 有个彼岸

也许有些路 注定要一个人走完

所以背包总是塞满 你所有温暖 很暖

原来你一直在我身边

不管距离多么遥远

就算乌云在眼睛里不散

你的笑容让我灿烂

原来你就在我的身边

不管时间怎么疏远

所以就算我飞上了云端

只要想想你住在我心里 我就心安

不是每片叶 都不怕坠落的遗憾

可是他们仍然飞翔 因为身后 树的期盼

也许有些梦 做起来才知道很难

可是一想到为了你 眼睛就不会 流汗

原来你一直在我身边

不管距离多么遥远

就算乌云在眼睛里不散

你的笑容让我灿烂

原来你就在我的身边

不管时间怎么疏远

所以就算我飞上了云端

只要想想你住在我心里 我就心安

原来你一直在我身边

不管距离多么遥远

就算乌云在眼睛里不散

你的笑容让我灿烂

原来你就在我的身边

不管时间怎词柙?

所以就算我飞上了云端

只要想想你住在我心里 我就心安

Wednesday, November 12, 2008 { 3:41 PM }

Today morning going to Jitra Mall work le...i hope when i working or nitez time she will call me or sms me...tis a few day will left her alone at house eat dinner n sleep...i'm sorry dear tat cant accompany u...but don worry i will back asap to accompany u after my work finish =) i love you dear Kang Ping Wei.

{ 3:21 AM }

Today from 12pm i waiting for her msg or a call until 2pm...the result is she nvr msg and call me at all...i already told her alot time i hope i got a gf to care me but she totally likes no care about my word =( When i fetch she back from work, she suddenly angry me coz i repeat ask her something...i dunno wat did i do?everytime i talk propely with her or my sis,i sure get scold by them....izzit i am a scolding toy?maybe yes ba...i hope she can turn back the caring,loving and sharing gf but is hard haiz...love making me crazy =(

Tuesday, November 11, 2008 { 5:09 PM }

Today morning when driving go college, my mind just keep think tat izzit i still nid to cont tis relationship? she yesterday nitez told me tat her heart now important is money and she treat me as a normal fren...although the word is very hurt but now i feel tat short term hurt is better then long term hurt...tomoro i going to a.setar work for 4 day but i scare tis relationship will make me cant concentrate in my job...wat should i do?anyone can give me a suggestion on my chat box?actually i still hope there something can make she back to last time de her.

Monday, November 10, 2008 { 9:13 PM }

Today saw her msn write "gambateh study ya" but is not for me is for her fren...dam sad tat people always got gf to care,to love and to share problem...but me?my gf nvr likes to share problem with me...feel likes she nvr care me at all...kinda heart broken when saw she care her fren and nvr care about me...i really don hav mood to study today...but force to go also coz if i go don go,she sure angry =( when i phone her ask izzit she write tat word for her fren,she say yes but if i wan tat word can share...wat is tat meaning wor?if word can share then gf n bf also can share?i really hope she know my feeling haiz...but i think she wont know coz in her heart i feel tat i'm just a normal fren for her...even her fren in her heart is more important then me.

Sunday, November 9, 2008 { 6:44 PM }

Actually tis morning i look abit sad coz yesterday nitez i watching she keep sms with other boy...i really hope she can less sms with other boy but i know is imposibble...the more i ask she stop the more she wanna sms with them...another more is why she sms kit n nid to delete the send msg...izzit the msg got sumthing tat can hurt me? I really scare she will do the thing tat i don wan to see likes call ppl darling,dear or muacks =( haiz i just can say out my feeling in my blog...i cant tell any ppl =(

Thursday, November 6, 2008 { 4:38 AM }

Misunderstand Memories

In October of 2007, a boy name Liang has meet a girl name Wei in his online games. That time Wei is in a relationship with other boy. But Liang never give for waiting her. In games, Liang got told Wei about her boyfriend is not truth to her cause that boy told Liang before he got girlfriend in real life. But Wei never trust Liang at all cause she still choose to believe her boyfriend. After a few week, at last Wei and the boy relationship is end already. When Liang has a chance to be with her but he cant do it cause that time Liang is in a relationship with a girl. In the end, Liang still choose to leave that girl because he want to be with Wei. He feel sorry to that girl but he cant lie tat girl anymore. A few more week later, Liang and Wei keep chatting in handphone. When they were chatting Liang trying to tell Wei that he love Wei. Wei also told Liang that she really happy when chatting with he. So their relationship is starting on November of 2007. One the first day Liang drive go Wei hometown to find her and he was very nervous. The first thing Liang do is bring Wei go eat kfc. After finish eat kfc, Liang ask Wei bring he go nearest shopping mall. They walking in the shopping mall and stop at a computer shop. In a one hour later, Liang feel boring and fetch Wei go back home. After Wei go home, Liang continue driving back to his hometown. When on the way home, Liang can feel that Wei is not really happy to be with him. After a few day, Wei told Liang actually she don’t have feeling with Liang. Liang was very sad and he cant believe that whatever he do Wei still love her x boyfriend. A few week later, one of Liang friend introduce he a new girl. Liang trying to chase the girl to forget about Wei and he success to be the girl boyfriend. In the moment be with that girl, Liang just thinking about Wei. One day Wei saw Liang marry with the girl in online games and she come tell Liang that actually she already regret and she starting got feeling with Liang. Because of this word Liang leave the girl again and be with Wei. Their relationship start again on 1.1.2008 and Wei move to Liang hometown and stay with him. After a few day, Liang family got some problem and because of this Wei need to move back stay her hometown. On the way back Liang is very sad cause he need to separate with Wei again. On that night after send Wei back, Liang crying when sleeping cause he suddenly feel very lonely. Day past very fast and reach 14 February 2008. That day is a special day for all couple cause it is valentine day. Liang drive early go Wei hometown and fetch her come down to his hometown for celebrate valentine day. That day Liang bring Wei go a shopping mall and they go watch a movie that actor is Jay Chou. After finish watch movie, Liang bring Wei go a flower shop and give her a bunch of roses with a big pooh on the roses. When Wei receive the roses she was very happy. In June of 2008 Wei moving to Liang hometown and stay with him again cause she found a job at there. At the first month, Liang very stick with Wei. They eat dinner together, watching television together and sleep together sometimes. In August of 2008 Liang starting abandon Wei already. Until October Wei feel disappointed with Liang cause Liang keep playing games let she eat dinner alone, let she sleep alone and never bring she go out to shopping. In 13 October 2008, Wei tell Liang that she want to leave he. That time only Liang start to regret and don’t wan to break with Wei. But is late already, Wei ask Liang to let she cool down and she want go other place to relax. When Wei back from her holiday, Liang keep suspect that she already love other boy. But actually Wei still love Liang and that night Liang did something that really hurt Wei. After that night Wei has make a decision that wont give Liang chance anymore. Everyday, Liang just know cry and beg Wei to give he another chance. Because of Wei don’t want to give chance to he, Liang make a story and tell other people that Wei has other relationship with other boy and make something that betray him. Liang also tell people that actually Wei keep scold him in Mesenger but actually is Liang login her account and make the story to blame Wei. Wei just tell Liang that she need sometimes to cool down. Liang getting angry and he keep spread the fake story to everyone. At last Wei found out that Liang did likes this to her and she very sad, disappointed and regret. Wei choose to give up and that time only Liang found out that he really did a lot thing that cant turn back anymore.

Sorry for my broken english if u cant understand. I'm just wanna say i'm sorry.This will be last post =)

Wednesday, November 5, 2008 { 9:43 PM }

Today morning wake up together with rachel n go downstairs open door let she go to work *_* after she go to work,i go to bath n then fetch mom go penang hospital for body checking...Wait mom for 3 hour is really boring =.=...after finish checking drive back to butterworth n go hav lunch with mom at a normal food shop @_@ the food is quite nice n cheap...then move back to home n rest le...after i wake up from sleep...the problem has repeat again...i dunno wat to do can only make it back to normal again...and at last she came back yesterday nitez n she gone in tis morning...THE END

I stay in love
Oh, baby
Baby
I stay in love with you

Dying inside cause
I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even
Really know why
All I know is baby
I try and try so hard
To keep our love alive

If you dont' know me
At this point
Then I highly
Doubt you ever will
I really need you
To give me
That unconditional love
I used to feel
It's no mistaking
We're just erasing
From our hearts
And minds

And I know we said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby
I stay in love with you

And I keep on
Telling myself
That you'll come
Back around
And I try to front
Like "oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now
No matter what I do
But baby, baby
I stay in love with you

Na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na
Baby
I stay in love with you

It cuts so deep
It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me
I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall
How we gon' act
Like what we had
Ain't nothin' at all now

Hey
What I wanna do is
Ride shotgun next to you
With the top down
Like we used to
Hit the block
Proud in the SUV
We both know
Our heart is breaking
Can we learn
From our mistakes
I can't last
One moment alone
Now go I know

We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby
I stay in love with you

And I keep on
Telling myself
That you'll come
Back around
And I try to front
Like "oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
Baby, baby
I stay in love with you

We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby
I stay in love with you

And I keep on
Yelling myself
That you'll come
Back around
And I try to front
Like "oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
But baby, baby
I stay in love with you

I stay in love
Love
Oh, I stay in love

Tuesday, November 4, 2008 { 8:00 AM }

Yesterday class is so tired la zzzzz...but after class i go cc play dota n relax hahaha...and one more thing i really hate sum fucker tat dunno himself perfect or not but act clever come ppl blog n show off his english n teach ppl how to live in tis world...pls la mr.SOHAI take a mirror look at ur fucking face be4 u say ppl la =) if u r perfect ppl i don mind to accept ur comment but problem ur face look likes sohaiz lol...so keep the comment for urself or ur other fren =) i just nid my alicejie,fionz jie n jas jie comment =) if u still thick face come to spam at ppl blog then u really r a sorhai @_@

Monday, November 3, 2008 { 6:09 AM }

Today is the first day of college again...all class for today is dam boring n got ntg to do -.- go there sit whole day hear lecturer booming...most happy is the lecturer told other student tat i pro in programming haha...after finish study when back home n eat dinner with rachel coz she no dare go down eat -.- tomoro nid go 8.30am class zzz...tonite nid sleep early else tomoro eye likes panda kenot open =P

Sunday, November 2, 2008 { 12:48 AM }

Today morning me n father go penang loh guan lai hospital fetch mom...today i feel my mood is normal...nvr think anything nvr feel anything...just hope everyday also can likes tis...another more i really hope tat she can really be happy n smile also...maybe we can be best fren ba =)

我还想她

泪水 将我淹没 到底谁该难过

究竟 是谁放掉 这段感情

我才终于明白 办不到的承诺

就成了枷锁

现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉她 我不爱他

笑著难过 自我惩罚

想终止这一切挣扎

横了心 说真心谎话

别告诉她 我还想她

恨总比爱容易放下

当泪水堵住了胸口

就让沉默 代替所有回答

我不爱 我不痛 我不懂

我的心 早已掏空

真心话 言不由衷

别告诉她 我还想她

就让沉默 代替所有回答

Saturday, November 1, 2008 { 4:13 AM }

Today i know a new fren name foong lin is my gan mei mei de mei mei haha...my heart now feel ntg very cool down coz i nvr think nonsense le...hope i can keep cool down likes tis so tat my life will be more happy...everyday sad,moody n cry is tired for me le...maybe my fate n her is already end le...nid to move on liao kenot keep stuck at there @_@

Selfish
I just don't understand
Why you're running from a good man baby
Why you wanna turn your back on love
Why you've already given up
See I know you've been hurt before
But I swear I'll give you so much more
I swear I'll never let you down
Cause I swear it's you that I adore
And I can't help myself babe
Cause I think about you constantly
and my heart gets no rest over you

You can call me selfish
But all I want is your love
You can call me hopeless (hopeless)
Cause I'm hopelessly in love
You can call me unperfect
But who's perfect?
Tell me what do I gotta do
To prove that I'm the only one for you
What's wrong with being selfish?

I'll be taking up your time
Until the day I make you realize
That for your there could be no one else
I just gotta have you for myself
Baby I would take good care of you
No matter what it is you're going through
I'll be there for you when you're in need
Baby believe in me
If love was a crime
Then punish me
I would die for you
Cause I don't want to live without you
Oh what can I do?

You can call me selfish
But all I want is your love
You can call me hopeless (hopeless)
Cause I'm hopelessly in love
You can call me unperfect
But who's perfect?
Tell me what do I gotta do
To prove that I'm the only one for you

Why do you keep us apart
Why won't you give up your heart
You know that we're meant to be together
Why do you push me away
All that I want is to give you love
Forever and ever and ever and ever

You can call me selfish
But all I want is your love
You can call me hopeless (hopeless)
Because I'm hopelessly in love
You can call me unperfect
But who's perfect?
Tell me what do I gotta do
To prove that I'm the only one for you

Selfishly I'm in love with you
Cause I've searched my soul
and know that it's you
Selfishly I'm in love with you
Cause I've searched my soul
and know that it's you
Selfishly I'm in love with you
Cause I've searched my soul
and know that it's you..

To prove that I'm the only one for you
So what's wrong with being selfish, selfish, selfish, selfish...
So what's wrong with being selfish...